Tuesday, April 29, 2008

sigh

I just want to give up on everything right now. It seems to be a pattern with me that nothing good lasts. Of course I'm emotionally drained right now and my heart feels like it weighs a ton, so my judgement may be a bit impaired.

Maybe I just don't deserve to be happy. Maybe my purpose is to be used and let down by everyone else. I just don't know what to trust in anymore. Or what to hope for.

2 comments:

twondra said...

Oh, hon. I'm so sorry you're not doing well. It's okay to feel that way. As horrible as it sounds, I sometimes feel used with Mark. I know he's sick and he can't help it so I feel guilty thinking like that. I do feel people with ill spouses are more apt to feel used.

Hang in there! E-mail me if you want to talk tammywondra@yahoo.com

Love ya tons sweetie!

journey of two FL mommies said...

keep your chin up! you deserve all the best!! we all feel that way sometimes. {{{hugs}}}
thinking of you