more uncertainty

from my post on the NW board

My dr called today to tell me that the nurse who'd ordered my blood test yesterday jumped the gun. That it is still too early for a positive to show up. She said I might still be preg after all and wants the test repeated next week. She thinks the bleeding last week could be implantation since I had no other AF symptoms. Instead of feeling hopeful I cried and told K I don't know if I can do this anymore. Between the broken adoption promise and what I thought were BFNs 3 times now I've mourned alot already this month. I'm afraid to hope again, but it's so hard not to!